It's been a really long time since i was bothered to even post anything on this.
Well, I can't really find the time too, or maybe there's always something I want to say but I just kept it inside :/

So now, I reckon this might be a bit long of a post. Or i might just take it one at a time ;)

Maybe this might sound a bit lame, but I think I realised how superficial and judgemental people can be. Why do people judge other people because of what they own? What they wear? Or even what they behave?

Sometimes, it is alright hearing comments here and there. But as they get more and more superficial, it's really taxing to take all these in. People I meet now, I click with them, we can be good friends and hang. but............ mmmhmm..

I really want to be in a place where I can act like who I really am, or to even be more open. Mmhm something simple like this seems pretty hard :(

Another thing is.....  Expectations.
There's always that concept of having expectations gives you disappointments.  Well have you ever wondered if you didn't expect you won't get disappointed? 

It's not like I want to make myself feel good about myself or anything but occasionally I feel so weighted down.  People expect too much from me,  like at a rate I can't keep up.  Honestly speaking I don't mind being nice and doing things people ask me of. But it comes to the point whereby a simple no from me,  disappoints others and then on ill feel bad and I'll just end up doing whatever from the start too.  Saying no or acting different occasionally doesn't means that I've changed or I'm any different. There are days where I'm tired or there could be other things that I'll like to prioritise first.  Why is it so hard to fulfill other people's expectation of me while handling the reality of life.  :/

Anyways i shouldn't rant all at once :(
And plus it's life, there's bound to be things like this. 

P. S I should write up something happy soon or ill look like an emo kid with all my sad posts.  ;)